A warm hello to all from chilly Wisconsin!
Here's another longer one I wrote while dead tired so it may or may not be the most coherent :)
I don't know if any of you do new year's resolutions or not. I personally don't because I rarely really grasp what point of the week or month or year or whatever we're actually at and therefore am not great at planning ahead to get my cards in order by the time new year's eve rolls around. I did make a vision board for this year, however, and I attached an updated picture since I've added to it from the first time I sent it. If you do resolutions, it's likely that maybe you've slipped up by now (and if not, more power to you) or hit some unforeseen snags in your endeavors. Alleviate yourself of any guilt from tripping up with any resolutions. And if you don't do resolutions, and even if you do and this applies, alleviate yourself of the guilt of having not accomplished something you set out to or have always wanted to and haven't or started long ago and let fall to the wayside. It happens to the best of us. You still have time if it's something that's still important to you. Often we let shame or guilt of having not gotten to the point we'd hoped we be at by now stop us from making progress, and it's a limiting vicious cycle that worsens as more time goes by.
Sometimes I'll find things from years ago talking about things I wanted to do or get in order and think to myself about how much I wished I had started then and where I could have been if that were the case. But it isn't, and that's when I can choose to forgive myself and cut loose the idea and free myself of that disappointment or actually start working towards it. Otherwise it's a situation where maybe I'd find it again a couple years down the line and have the moment of thinking how much I wished I had started with it the last time it came up.
I'm not really someone who believes that everything happens for a reason (and this is entirely unrelated, but if you are, reconsider before saying it to people going through tragedies or difficult situations. It's well-intentioned but usually comes off as callous, and impact over intent and all that jazz) but who really knows! Maybe you'd get something out of the experience that you wouldn't have when you were a younger version of yourself. Give yourself the chance, if you want to. I was going to take a class to get my basic emergency medical technician certification during the spring of my last year in high school, but that got all screwed up for me even before Covid got the chance to wreck that semester and I didn't really put up a fight to advocate for myself. I am taking it now and started last week, and it seems like it's shaping up to be an interesting ride.
January first is as significant of a day as any other, just as Monday may be the start of the week but you can choose to do whatever whenever. Life is like a really stupid game with incredibly inconsistent and convoluted rules. Don't let yourself be another obstacle in the ridiculous amount you're going to encounter as you go along. It's so, so important to be your own ally through this. Take your EMT class, pick up animation again, strengthen bonds with people who are important to you but have drifted away, finally do something with your boxes of god knows what that have been sitting there from a move that happened too long ago for this to be acceptable anymore -- those are some of mine, but I'm sure you all have at least something of your own. There's a lot to do and a lot to learn in this life, and you're gonna do fine with whatever bits and pieces of it you choose to make your battles.
Love y'all, have a nice week, stay safe, let the people that matter to you know you love them, eat a vegetable or two, so on and so forth.
One of my friends showed me and some others in a group chat this site called Wordle which is a word puzzle that gives a new puzzle every day and it's the same for everyone so if you're good at it you can flex on your friends like we've been doing, if that's up anyone's alley.
Marold out 😎
(Looks kind of not terrible when opened in a new tab.)
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